More than a decade before Columbine, I was actively planning a mass murder rampage. This never took place due to an extraordinary intervention. Every time some new horror takes place, I always had one question-How is it that I was stopped and they were not? Here I tell my story as accurately as I can, up until a few weeks before it would have taken place. The pages herein contain my reply to every mass shooting that had ever taken place, written in the hope that someone, somewhere, may find in them a reply of his own.